I guess I'll stay home tday. Baby's still sleeping. Joel just offered to help me wake her up (: Hehehe. Baby just called me up & talked for awhile. Man, I miss her so much. :( Just texted Sass, asking if we're still going out. Hm, if she isn't meeting me then I'm going to find baby (:

I'm blogging every now & then, whenever I think I have the time, whenever I feel like it. Oh I thought of meeting baby tday & go down to City Hall with her to meet her friends for lunch. Then while they have lunch, I'll go shopping on my own. I wanna get the pencil for Joel & Zel @ ArtFriend. Time to be a little independent! I've gotta learn to be, really.

I bet baby must be damn tired. We talked from 12-3am last night. Damn crappy & all (: Ahh, I like!

Qiaos's sister's wedding this Saturday ( I think! ). I wanted to go but baby has assignments to complete so I guess I'll stay home. :( Fucking hate weekends. Fucking hate SP. My stomach is starting to pain again, very badly this time.

Talked to Nique online just now & she asked me to call her. Talked for awhile then hung up (: She's gonna find her baby with Old Chang Kee, how sweet!. Hm & when she's @ her school, she called again. My oh my, she's damn vain la. Ok just like baby. Ok wait, maybe baby's vainer. =l Nique ah, act shy only. Tsktsk.

Just painted my nails a minute ago, just after Nique hung up (:I want supa bright red!. I guess I'll go get it tday. I'm gonna keep all my nail polish in my drawer with a small bottle of remover & some cotton wool. Heh, so I can change colours anytime! So smart. I'll go get more colours tday! :D

Oh! I forgot to mention. Miss Teh made Qiaos & I cut our nails two days back!. Fucking cheechee. My nails were so damn nicely shaped (Perhaps not as nice but I'm contented) & it's so llong. I wanted to do manicure la. Now thanks to her. it llooks llike shit now. Ugh omg. It llooks so short, I don't llike. =/

I guess I better help Shyan with her layout soon. Haha I was laughing so hard.

Mom just called & pissed me off. She's one very very very very very very very huge pain in the ass. Omg auntie, it's the holidays & I've got motherfucking Art to do. Yeh so what? So what if I'm gonna entertain my girllfriend? $700 plus course you paid for me & you're not happy about it. I'll pay for it okay, how 'bout that? If not, then stop fucking around with that. Make so much comments. I wonder why did I tell you that I'd get you that Anteprima handbag once when I got my first assignment's pay. I must be outta my mind. Fucking $1000 handbag & I wanna get it for you? Omg dream on okay. I'm spending it on her instead. Spoil my fucking morning. Aiya fuck off la.

I'm so angry now. Forget it. She wants me to eat lunch with her & get the fucking sims program. Fucking angry please. Ugh I miss girllfriend so much. :( Sigh. I feel like killing her now. Just because of her, now I can't go out, can't meet up with baby. Fuck man. She was complaining yesterday that the iPod contains stupid loud songs that she doesn't like. Then don't listen la, forget it lor. You can choose not to listen what. She was complaining that the songs I listen to are so loud & noisy, & in the iPod she can only listen to three songs. Who ask you so cheena? It's music, not noise by the way. Songs by your fav singers, are noise. She was scolding me yesterday that I came outta the house so early ( which is @ 11plus ) & only reach school @ 1plus. I told her I went to get lunch with Qiaos for the rest!. Gosh, I wish someone would just slap her at that time. She was complaining yesterday that I made her buy the sims for me & I didn't play. Not because I didn't, it's because I can't play!. They need another sims program. & so she said she's gonna buy it tday. She asked me to wake Zel up now. She thinks it's so easy to wake that log up or what? Fuck man. I feel like tearing up her face & screammmm.

Okay I'm feeling better now, phew.

Baby & I had this conversation about money issues yesterday & I'm so troubled by it. I felt bad though, two issues. I don't like to rush people who owes me money, to ask them to return to me & all. But sometimes I really don't have a choice. I badly need to stuff 300 bucks into my account soon, before Dad finds out that I took 300 out to pay baby's fares, Qiaos & mine art stuff. I was just thinking how to get 100 within such a short time. I can't probably let Dad know that I'm paying things for my friends. He'd kill.

Baby kept saying that my family is well-to-do & that is what made me felt uber bad. She needs help in money issues & I can't help @ all. I'm thinking of ways to get money within a short time. I was thinking of going down to work @ Chinatown this two weeks so I'll get income. It's easy job & the pay is good. But that would mean I won't have time for baby during weekdays. And weekends, baby diedie also will never go out with me. And that also mean that whenever I have class @ night with Qiaos, I'll have to rush down to Newton immediately after work. Sigh, how? :(

And I told baby that when I get paid for the assignments & all, I'll half it with her. After Ns, I'm definitely working @ Chinatown for three months. I think the pay would be really good. Though it takes away time with baby but I guess that is the only way to salvage the pocket holes.

While baby & I were talking about it, tears fell & soaked into her pillow. I felt so fucking useless. And I was speechless. All I could do was keep quiet. Fuck this shit. I don't know how to make her feel better. I wished there was something I could do, other than just sitting here. :( I wish someone would empathise with me, sigh. - hugs Elmo & cry

Enough of this crappiness.
I'm going to shower now & meet that moron. Ugh!.


XAVIER
LIN,
I
LOVE
YOU
&
I
MISS
YOU
SO.


(i'm tellin' you to lloosen up my buttons baby./)
<3.

9:51 AM
Mend this broken thing./
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